Mothers and Daughters

Okay so I know God has a sense of humor because he gave me a child when I was 40. Hope He got some good laughs from that. ha ha Seriously though we were told we couldn't have any children after I miscarried a few years before, so Hannah was a little miracle. And I have another daughter who is seventeen and will be a senior in high school. Two daughters, ten years apart that is God's sense of humor with me. They are nothing alike in temperament either. Sometimes I don't know what to do with either one.

My oldest daughter has had a rough time of it the last several years. I thought I had found the perfect high school for her and left my teaching position that I had held for six years to begin teaching at a new school. I made some great friends there and she did too. She was on the worship team and was growing so much as a Christian it was awesome to watch. But then after two years the school closed and it wasn't pretty how it did: friendships ended, trusts were broken and it crushed my daughters, not to mention what it did to me. My youngest daughter went to school there as well pre-k and kdg. She cried when we drove by and saw the gates were padlocked and stuff had been thrown out practically into the street. We were all wounded and disillusioned with Christian schools and I really didn't want to teach anymore. I had no idea what we were going to do and then I was asked to teach at another Christian school and I said no three times. I found a school for Hannah (my youngest) and she started first grade and made some new friends. Finally I said yes to teaching and Gretchen enrolled in the school. Well, here we are looking at what to do with her senior year because ...wait for it...that school closed too.

Now don't get me wrong, I do believe God had a purpose for both of us going there last year. I met some great women that have become my friends and Gretchen made some awesome friends as well. One guy in particular that means the world to her, and she has been dating for eight months. He is a great guy, with a heart for God and my daughter. But I may write more about him in another blog, this one is for mothers and daughters. So now I am asking God what next? We have made the decision to send Hannah to public school and see how she does there We don't have the money right now to send her back to the Christian school she went to last year. And Gretchen, well we may do a part-time enrollment at yet a third high school and also some college courses. I know God will help me know what is best.

I miss my mom! It is times like these that I would love to be able to pick up the phone and just call her and say "HELP!"